Interestingly enough, this morning marks my 68th consecutive circle since committing this to being a daily practice-- significant because that is my birth year, and this process feels much like bringing something to life that was not quite there before. The thread of creativity was already tapped into, but not called upon to present itself day after day onto a blank slate.
Thankfully, the circle provides a balance of endless and contained space. I was reflecting on that with someone who had inquired about these circles... sharing that I am finding that feelings difficult to express in words end up feeling like they want to go live in the circle. There are no hard edges needing balance of composition, and no matter what marks, puddles of pigment or water you place inside, they are held as they are. No other artistic or life situation comes to mind which so effortlessly offers this simple freedom. I find the circle quite soothing and receptive, even when I do not feel at ease with the emotional feelings that often live within those marks. Somehow, circles provide me a sense of safety and outlet, something which has not been present during all parts of my life, and which I cherish now.
This perspective of seeing the empty circle as a beckoning to draw out what may be lying beneath the surface, helps balance out the feelings of hesitation that are bound to arise with any practice to which we are committing daily energy and time. And I am working with the resistance by acknowledging it when it arises, and doing it, anyway. I am also reminding myself that there are some days that I know I will not feel like writing about what is inside the circle, and giving myself permission to not explain, but to allow the colors and shapes speak for themselves in as much or little as they do, reminding myself that the main purpose of these circles is for inner reflection, quiet, and growth.
And I have also continued to be deeply gratified as people continue to reach out to me and share how this practice is helping them in their own journeys. I am touched to know that these simple renderings can act as a conduit for shared experience and interpretation, and hopefully some day soon, a bit of humor will be in one of them ;). Lately, I have been in a very reflective place, perhaps more so than usual. And although it feels vulnerable to share some of my raw edges, it also lessens the isolation I think that we can all feel when going through day to day life... of raising our children, ourselves, and dealing with the ups and downs of every life. Beneath it all is an awareness of privilege and abundance in my life, and I know I am very fortunate. I send goodness out to all of you this week, and hope you all feel important and loved.